Yesterday was my 7 year wedding anniversary. The strange thing is, other than knowing it was my anniversary, it really was just a normal ordinary day. Nothing unusual or special. I cleaned, organized, took care of the baby, cooked, and read... But the calendar date marked something special. Crazy how 7 years ago, I had so many feelings on this day, and today, everything is just normal.
We've had such warm weather lately that I have been in flip flops or barefoot all the time (I only wear shoes as a safety precaution... Otherwise, I'd probably be barefoot all the time and wouldn't even own shoes). Anyway... When I was in the shower last night I had to spend a special amount of time scrubbing my feet... They were so dirty.
Looking back over the last 7 years, I ask myself, "Am I where I thought I would be?" Had you asked me 7 years ago today, "Where do you see yourself in 7 years?" I would have told a much different story than what my life ended up being. But, in hindsight... I wouldn't change a thing. I probably would have said we'd live in a comfortable home in Michigan with a dog and at least 3 kids... We don't. We live in a little apartment in New York, with a cat, and our son.
I think if anyone predicts their life, they look back years later and see how differently things turned out. I used to think I had the perfect story written for myself, and that nothing in life could be better. I went through years of feeling discontentment, because I had to wait on so many things. Who likes waiting? Honestly? I still don't like waiting, but I have learned so many things from waiting that I have grown to appreciate those moments.
I think about my years of waiting to be a mom. I would never want to go through it again, obviously, but I'm glad it was a part of my life. Strange how joyful things in life can be taken for granted and forgotten quickly, but the difficult things, we can become ever-thankful for years later. I never thought I would be thankful for that difficulty...I wanted to be, but I didn't know if it were possible.