On March 12, 2017... just a few weeks ago, I posted a video on social media, telling everyone about our second adoption journey. I wanted to get fundraising rolling because I knew how costly this adoption could be, plus, we had just received our last bill in the mail for Emmanuel's adoption a few weeks prior. I spent a lot of time and thought into coming up with ideas for fundrasing and how to present it in a way that would best grab people's attention. If you took the time to watch my whole video, thank you!
But now I am forced to do what I have dreaded. We posted the video March 12, and the evening of March 15 we learned some potential news that shook us up a lot. By the afternoon of the 16th we realized that this child, whom we had grown to love... this child we had been praying for... this child we were preparing to receive, would not be coming home with us this fall. I won't share all the details, but, I will share that I was, and still am, heartbroken. My emotions are difficult to explain. I am hurt, but I am healing. I am heartbroken, but I am hopeful.
The fact is, although we will not be bringing THIS child home, we are still adopting again. I recently read a statistic that about 20% of adoptions end in failure. Of course, going into any adoption, you know the risks. Our son's adoption was very smooth and circumstances were different. I think the fact that I know adoptions can be successful, gives me a renewed hope. I knew 50% of marriages end in failure, but I still got married. Many women know that 20% of pregnancies end in miscarriage, but they still grow their family through that means anyway. Most rewarding things involve risk and vulnerability.
Again, I'm so sorry to have to deliver this news... I've been dreading it. But God is still good. He is still on the Throne. He is still sovereign, even in this. And He still writes beautiful stories for His children. We put our hope in Him, and not in the success/failure of adoption. Please continue to lift our family in prayer. We are in need of encouragement during a time of disappointments.
Also, our t-shirt campaign ends April 1. Adoption awareness is so important. Our shirts say, "Love has no limits." Love isn't limited to blood and biology... adoption is such a testimony to that. I really encourage you to purchase one of our shirts, not to build our adoption fund, but to raise adoption awareness.